Time for a new blog

I already have a blog, which is public, has readers (some but not a huge number) and I share it with my other half - now these are my problems:

1. The readers.

2. My Other Half.

Among my readers are my Husband, my Ex-Husband, my Husband's Ex-Wife, my Husband's children, my Husband's Ex-Wife's Equally Bitter Friends and so on. It's become a forum where I have to watch what I say, and sometimes you just want to have a really good rant and get it off your chest.

Now last year, my Other Half became my Husband. We met on the net, fell in love at first Messenger, he left his wife, kids and home to come and be with me. I was already seperated, had set up home with my boys. Life was good, but I was starting to miss having a man around, and to be quite honest I had become fairly desperate for sex, taking it here and there in far from ideal circumstances. But then came along Husband (which of course he wasn't at the time, he was someone elses).

Last year before we married I had some doubts, and on a very drunk evening almost called it all off. But I didn't and most of the time things are 100% good. But then there are the other times, and this is the reason for the blog. I started this blog in December 2005 after a night out returning drunk and in full arguing mode. I thought it would be good to have a record of all of the 'bad' in our relationship - our other blog containing pretty much all of the good plus a few minor rants. I thought it might help me to consider the relationship, the impact it's having on my kids, my principles, my happiness and ultimately, should there come a time would give me a record of events leading up to a climax.

I can't find/remember-for-the-life-of-me the password for the blog I started in December, so is that first post reproduced and sadly will be added to - I know that already ...